Ultherapy is a non-surgical lifting procedure for the face and neck that uses tried-and-true ultrasound technology to gradually strengthen your skin from deep within. In less than an hour – and without any downtime – you'll be well on your way to tighter, better-fitting skin.A little bit about me….I’m an actress and a comic who just turned 41 years old. I’ve never been symmetrical, but I had great bone structure, big playful eyes and possessed a unique look. I have a comedy show that I do, and am very active in theater, film and TV. My looks mean a lot to me. I know we are not supposed to admit, that, but it’s true. The reality is that I didn’t need Ultherapy. I had a tight jaw, and nothing was hanging on my face, but I wanted to stave off few years, and “delay” aging. I thought I would look exactly like myself, just a little better. That’s the idea right? So, I went down to a clinic in Seal Beach, California, and coughed up $1900 clams for this new and exciting technology. A Registered Nurse did the deed and it hurt, but I didn’t care. I was excited for the results. The treatment took a bit over an hour, and I didn’t have any swelling afterwards, just some strange numbness, and nerve tingling for a month. I didn’t think much of it. Ultherapy hypes itself as “natural” because you “build your own collagen.” Basically, Ultherapy cooks the SMAS layer of the face to 150 degrees, damaging it, so it can repair itself (build collagen) and lift. Unfortunately, what they do not disclose is the fact that Ultherapy also burns fat, and the results from Ultherapy are highly unpredictable. So here you have fat loss, and collagen growth and no way to direct where on the face this will happen. It is out of the doctor’s hands as well. So potentially, you could grow collagen on the bottom of your cheeks and lose fat all around your eye sockets. Can you see how this would be aesthetically unharmonious? But I digress, back to the story. I’m 2 months post treatment…
Oh my God! I see some brow lifting!!! This shit actually works. Can it lift my tits? What about my ass? If I do it twice, will I look 4 years younger instead of two? This is the Ultherapy honeymoon phase, and oh how sweet it is.I’m 3 months post treatment.
I can’t take a good picture. I know all the angles of my face and I can ALWAYS take a good picture, so what’s going on? Am I aging this quickly? Must be this new camera phone…and this one…Month 4.
…I’m still me, but my head is tiny. Am I shrinking? I look frail and delicate. I still have my bone structure and eyes in tact, but my face looks so small. Maybe it’s this camera phone.Month 4.5
…The diarrhea hits the fan. The left side of my face, which has always been smaller, is really small. I mean it’s just one high cheekbone that slopes into nothingness. The areas around my eyes are all hollow, and the nasolabial folds around my mouth are deep as ditches! It looks like I have lost a lot of weight. I haven’t! Something is very wrong.before and after.eyes shrink, change color, need bi-lateral ptosis surgery Month 5
….”I think I’m turning Japanese, I think I’m turning Japanese, I really think so.” I notice that my eyes look squinty! My eye sockets are so small, that it looks and feels like my eyeballs are being held hostage by the skin that surrounds them! The corners are tight and pinched, and the whites are not showing nearly as much anymore. I have a COMPLETELY different eye shape. I try to pry them open with my fingers, but I can’t. There is no wiggle room whatsoever. My eyes are sealing up. It’s so tight that my eyeballs water. I want to take a knife and slit the skin around them and set them free! My forehead is tight too, and it’s pulling my eye sockets upwards. I’ve always had big playful eyes, and now they are beady and mean. I don’t recognize myself, at all! My smile is UGLY, because have zero fat around my eyes and mouth and I’m ALL NOSE! Where is my sexiness, my funniness, my Joie de Vivre?These are the bad times… Month 5.. face melts off Month 5-6-
“ I knew who I was this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then.” (Alice in Wonderland) The changes are rapid now, and there’s no denying that my face is fucked. I sink into a dark depression, but am panicked at the same time. My left eye is doing some really weird stuff. It is small and strange. My right eye is unfamiliar as well. I’m a different person. I keep tying to find “Me” in my face, but I cant, she’s not there.I hit the Real Self boards, scouring for information. There are dozens of women who were botched by Ultherapy whose faces now hang. I thought that only happened to people who did Thermage? I thought Ultherapy was safe, and proven to leave your fat unharmed? I post questions to doctors, like the desperate woman that I am, asking about the eye change situation. “Will it go back? Will my eyes and face go back to normal? Will it wear off? Will it? Will it? Huh? Is it possible to have fat injections over my eyebrows, and above my lips? Can you tell me WHY this is happening? Do I have to live with these slits as eyes now? IS THERE ANYBODY OUT THERE?” The only answer I receive is, “That’s not a known side effect of Ultherapy.” What about all of the other women that this happened to? Do you think I’m making this up? Don’t you want to report my adverse reactions to Ultherapy? Don’t piss in my ear and call it rain fuck tards! But no, they all parrot the same Ultherapy jargon they learned at their one- day seminar. “That’s not a known side effect of Ultherapy.” What do you expect? They are on the payroll. Eventually they refuse to answer any of my questions, as I’m bad for business. “I won’t be ignored Dan!” My review on Real Self is garnering a lot of attention, and I have dissuaded many people from going through with treatment (I hope I don’t get wacked). I can’t stress the importance of sharing your experience on Real Self enough. They have had 50 million unique visitors since last year and are a major factor in whether Ultherapy sinks or swims. Don’t forget your life jackets suckers. Long story short, I tried to preserve my looks with Ultherapy, and wound up hitting the accelerator to 200 miles per hour, straight into a brick wall. The days are going by and I don’t recognize myself. I’m gone. POOF! My smile, my expression, my eyes, my beauty…ME! GONE. I’m terrified! I feel like I’m in some fucked up Twilight Zone episode. I don’t know what to do. I can run but I can’t hide. This new face with small mean eyes follows me wherever I go. “Get lost!” “Beat it! “You are not real!” I want to scream, But It is real. It is. I feel so desperate and alone. Every day is a new surprise. I can’t even drink my way out of this one. It’s too depressing. I need solutions, answers! I spend my days housebound in isolation. The Real Self blog is all I have. Oh how I want to be my “real self “again. I loved her. I should have told her more often, I didn’t want her to go away. I didn’t think I was going to kill her! Come back!!! Let’s laugh. Let’ s take sexy selfies, let’s do it all!!!! But I can’t. She’s gone. I spend the next 6 weeks having full -blown panic attacks and my eyes are really starting to look bizarre. I feel like Jeff Goldblum in the third act of “The Fly. Should I puke on a donut and eat it? Where’s Geena Davis when you need her? I go to the clinic where the Ultherapy was performed, and I see the nurse and hug her because I’m so scared. They take an after picture, and when I see the results, I almost fall off of my chair. My worst fears are confirmed. My bright gorgeous eyes are tiny, hooded, retracted, and pulled all over the place. My head has shrunk like Beetle Juice. “HOLY FUCKING SHIT!” I picked the wrong week to stop sniffing glue. The nurse looks shocked and says, “This isn’t supposed to happen” but doctor says,“ You look toned.” That’s what they tell you by the way. It must be in the Ultherapy handbook. Chapter 10. (What to Say to Botched Patients) 1.”You look toned.” 2. “Ultherapy melted your fillers and you are not used to seeing yourself this way.” 3. “Err…we seem to have LOST your before pictures. That’s right. They are claiming to have lost my pictures. Month 6.5, I’m puffing up so much, but only on the right side of my face. I can actually FEEL the puff coming on. The left side is gaunt hanging. There is almost ZERO fat on my face. It’s like someone threw me in the dryer. Heat shrinks right? It shrunk my muscles and my fat and my eye-sockets. The only place collagen is growing is over my classy cheekbones, which are now large and flat. My face is like a sheet of paper? I have no contour whatsoever, and my left eye, which used to be the bigger one, looks small and crazy. I used to part my hair to the side like Veronica Lake exposing it. Sultry Bitch! Damn it! I see an oculoplast. “So I did this thing called Ultherapy and my eyes shrunk…help!” The surgeon diagnoses me with ptosis of the left eye and says that I need surgery. He says that there was always a higher brow on my left side, so the muscle may have been weaker to begin with. “This may be true, but my eyes were stunning, and I don’t give a rat’s ass about a higher brow!” He can’t understand me though. He only sees the small eye that droops before him. I try to EXPALIN to him. “THESE ARE NOT MY EYES!!!! My eyes are big and vivacious, not small and misshaped. “Surgery is the only way to fix it.” He insists. He’s a skilled artist, but doesn’t know shit about Ultherapy. The funny thing is, neither does anyone else. The company is owned by Mertz Pharmaceuticals, and they are selling this Fisher Price technology to anyone with a medical license and letting anyone with a bachelor’s degree use it. I’m now inconsolable. My eyes are pulling so tight that they hurt, especially when I try to look up. Did it shrink my forehead muscle, limiting my movement? I have no temporal fat, even after the fillers, which cost me $1300 bucks at another office. . I’m having a nervous breakdown. I beg him to do something to get me to the next stop. He puts one syringe of Boletero in my upper eyelids for $1500 big ones (I thought it would be half of that cost). I didn’t have enough dough, so I had to give him my credit card over the phone later that night. I spent $2800 in 2 days. I’m a comic, but I don’t feel funny at all. Not with this boney face and small eyes. Am I destined for a career, playing villains named Ming for the rest of my life? I cancel all of my appointments that relate to being in front of a camera. To be robbed of my “look “from a 90 -minute “painful facial” in a single afternoon is still so inconceivable. I’m still in shock, and it still seems surreal, like a bad acid trip. I avoid mirrors, cameras, and photos of me from 6 months ago. 6.5 Months post treatment, and I see another surgeon. He believes Ultherapy should only be used to melt double chins. Good call. He thinks that I should wait 6 more months (1 year post treatment) to see if anything regenerates. I try to summon my inner octopus. He recommends fat grafting starting at the scalp to help lift things, but that comes risks. The thought of looking like a Neanderthal scares me, but I am grateful to be HEARD by someone who knows Ultherapy is dangerous. I leave the appointment hopeful. I spend my nights massaging my head with my vibrator, which I have lubed up with arnica oil to get things moving. Did I mention I’m single? I apply surgical tape on top of my eyebrows in hopes of stretching open my lids. The loss of fat has caused looseness around my eyes, which makes me look sad and weary. The left side of my face will need more filler to catch up to the ever -growing right side. My chin looks like a paddle too, all flat with no contour. If you were to see me, you would think I look fine. You wouldn’t know me any other way. My friends say I look different, but not bad. My one friend said that he likes my “new Asian look.” Thanks Steve, but I want the other woman back. The woman I’ve known her for 41 years. I don’t want this thin-faced lady with the small eyes. I want the girl with the curl, all champagne, and giggles. Watching your face change is scary and losing your beauty so quickly, before your very eyes is a nightmare. You can’t stop it and you can’t get any answers. Talk about feeling out of control! A lot of psychological issues pop up. Someone said it sounds like I have “Body Dysmorphic Disorder,” I said, “No, it’s actually Body Pro-morhic Disorder, because it’s REALLY happening.” Perhaps it should be added to the DSM. In conclusion, Ultherapy is Very DESTRUCTIVE. It will not help you stay young, but will AGE you and take away the essence that is YOU, your personality, your eyes, and your character. It lifts for a few months and then it sags, leaving you running for MORE Ultherapy. Cha-Ching! Take a close look at Ultherapy before and after’s, and NOT the same ones Ultherapy uses over and over again. Do they really look younger, or just different? The eyes are usually smaller with the corners lifted. The forehead almost ALWAYS becomes convex. In other words, your forehead profile will become flat, not nice curved like Natalie Portman. I call it the classic “Ultherapy face,” and I can spot it a mile away. A lot of celebrities have done it and something is off. They have lost their spark. I am hoping to get mine back. Ladies. Please be careful. If you have a fat face and you want to thin it out. Ultherapy may be useful for you. Most people have zero results and are bent about the cash, some people are happy, and others got jacked like myself. I created this blog because I’ve never felt more scared and alone. They haven’t figured out the kinks in the technology yet. Please take care and thanks for reading my story.